Yesterday I had a goodbye party.
It was a short notice, cause I was swamped by all the things to do and not knowing exactly how I wanted it anyway I just kept putting it off, but it turned out great.
I told a couple of people in person in the beginning of the week that I might pull something together on Saturday, in hope that there was a chance for them to show up plus so that I’m held accountable for actually making it happen. I could have sneakily left without saying goodbye to many of them and I’m sure I would have regretted it…
So on Thursday I finally kicked myself in the butt, reserved a table to Saturday at a pub from the late afternoon, made an open call facebook event with a description of where-when and an FAQ about what the heck it’s all about, where do I go, whats the plan and schedule like.
Many of my friends found it hilarious and typical of me that I wrote an FAQ about my travels, but well… I wanted to spend my time with Them, hopefully hearing about things that go on in their lives as well, so for not spending the night telling the same story of where-why-when over and over again it seemed like a good idea. Especially since the idea was to meet anyone and everyone who is willing to show up, even if we haven’t talked in years, so letting them know whats going on made sense for me. As ridiculous as it may be, it worked. :)))
About 17 people came throughout the night from people I haven’t seen in ages to folks who I befriended not so long ago. Some were planning to go abroad soon themselves as well – all in different ways for different reasons, so we were also aiming to set dates for meeting up in different corners of the continent.
It was a great night, I loved it.
I was surrounded with people I love, we talked, we laughed, we drank, but not to the point of getting drunk (not me at least – I was there to make memories not to loose them), we ate, and talked some more.
I managed to have a one-on-one conversation with almost everyone.
I hugged them all multiple times.
Damn I’m gonna miss these people… and so many others as well…
Getting up in the morning I was wearing a silly grin for hours, just thinking through last night – love overflow.
My mind went off on a ride about all the things I’ve learnt from these people, things I’m grateful for, memories together, why I love them and all the small fragments of life that I treasure.
This is beginning to sound very cheesy, but oh well…
Anyway, so today for the most part of the day I felt all warm and fuzzy and just wanted to hug everyone.
Then I think my mind got exhaused with happiness or something, ’cause after that the lingering panic started to creep in the picture – I’M LEAVING IN 3 DAYS!
That paired up with the I-love-everyone flash and made a gorgeous mix of “what the hell am I doing, I’m gonna miss them so much”. Yes, feel free to laugh at my misery, I’m being entertained as well.
I know that I’ll be really busy being impressed by the world, meeting friends who I’m only keeping contact with online nowadays and just being in ADHD(squirrel!) mode running around in generall, but still. Now it hit me that I will be missing out on being here for some people that I deeply care about. *sigh*
Hey Self,
Emotion roller-coaster much?
Yup, it’s happening, memes are now part of my blog.
It was gonna be an honest corner of mine, so I guess it was inevitable, You probably all knew it was gonna happen. ¯\_(ツ )_/¯
That’s it about me for today.
But hey, I actually wrote the blogpost instead of just ‘writing it in my head’ as I did with many before.
Achievement unlocked! 🙂
