I think it’s no news to any of my friends, that I would say I have too many things in my life and I refuse to give up any of them.

I’ve been home in Budapest since mid-October – started a part time job (the one I mentioned in my previous blogpost as one I probably didn’t get).
Now I have that 3 times a week and they just recently asked / offered a full time position (with a shift into a coordinator / project manager role). I’m not sure if I should go for a full time job or not…
Cause apart from that, I’m also a host at a co-working place which I really enjoy, it’s 2 shifts per week (4-5 hours/shift). By default it doesn’t pay, but grants me access to the space, the community though if I’m being honest I haven’t really been using those benefits all that much. But I take on extra shifts every so often and that pays, plus I adore the people I met there, it’s a really simple, low-pressure environment and I like that. I get to meet people I otherwise wouldn’t and I also got some work (art commission) through that gang.
Lately they half-seriously asked if I would be interested in actually working for them, running the place – funny enough that question came the same day when my workplace folks told me that they’d want me full time. Choices oh, choices.

Plus there’s the event organizing thing that’s been on my plate for awhile now and since I’m home I was trying to be more active – especially since so many people from the team became passive. If I had the will to pour more energy into that, I think we could start turning it into a business too, but right now, that’s pretty stagnant. It’s still experience on a few fields.

For the next few weeks I’m also helping out my drawing teacher on quite a few weekends, which is cool, cause otherwise I don’t really meet him, but the work itself doesn’t give me a lot of boost…
Aaand on top of that comes the fact, that I would be an artist or what. I usually don’t have a lot of mental capacity to learn and improve, though I really should be, cause my eye is so much better trained nowadays than my hands and it’s a really frustrating stage to be in. I’m not happy with the things I make most of the time, I see soooo many mistakes, but I’m not yet able to fix them. Gotta deal with that…

As for the job offers, I decided, that I wouldn’t make commitments before I come back from Bologna, since my mind was full of what I could potentially want to get out of the Bologna Children’s book fair. I got home yesterday.
The last thing I expected to happen during the event was the husband of my friend telling me that if I wanted to live in Portugal, I could work as a project manager at their company or if social media might interest me more, there’s room for that being a position too. 😀 But at least that’s an easy “no” at this moment. I’m settled in Hungary and for now I’m staying here. I need some stability, I’m finally starting to have my room set up well and I have a lot to learn in my current life. I’d only give this all up for a Good offer from something that is really appealing in both personal / career growth and money. I’m not running anywhere. I was wide open for options a couple of months ago,now at least the location is set, to make choices easier.

Anyway, after a week of whirlwind and runaround in Bologna I’m back to my little nest and I have no idea what I’m doing. I want to draw a hundred different things, I want to paint, I want to do nothing and everything. So many things are rushing around in my head that it’s hard to just start anything and stick to it.

I have a commission I should also be working on, but I couldn’t get in the mood of that piece the whole day, so I was messing around with other things…

But at least I started reworking my website, made progress with that. I’m more happy with the current setup even though there are still soooo many things that should be reworked and well, so many things I should be writing, scanning, editing, uploading, painting for it too.

One step at the time I guess.
For now, I’ll give myself an hour and put on some pain(t)ing music and get back to a weird, creepy unicorn painting I started yesterday evening.

Let’s see where that takes me…