I applied to an animation “cleanup” training program because the opportunity just showed up on my newsfeed. Hell, why not? Well, because…

1. I have no backgroun in animation, and I definitely don’t have the kind of work they would be looking for
2. The training is in spanish and my language skills faded a long time ago
3. It starts in July in Madrid, which means if by some kind of miracle I would get accepted I would not be able to make to Ireland as we agreed with my friends.
4. Also I’d be in Spain for the summer which I wanted to avoid, cause I am really not a summer person.

Well… Thankfully this thought process didn’t have much of a weight in my head, the little voice was either tired or left behind lost somewhere.
It might be the travel and freedom mindset, I just didn’t really allow myself to think about it. I saw it, read through, looked at all the comments to see any additional info the main post might have been missing and went straight to writing an email and linking my portfolio. Even though I know it’s not fit for it… or the company. It’s a _trainging_ program, not a job – that doesn’t sound that dangerous.

But to answer the little voice and the worries, I have all the replies… here it goes:

1. The application process is there for a reason, they can just decide for themselves if I have any skills they find value in or not. I just have to be an okay student material I guess.
2. If I have the chance to prepare for a month I could just try to pressure myself hard enough to brush up my spanish and I’m sure it would work out then. It would be a great motivation to actually jump back on track with it – nothing works better than having something at stake. Being upfront but enthusiastic about the issue again allows them to decide for themselves if they take the risk or not.
3. My friends are great and not only will they understand, they’d be cheering for me in the front row.
4. Bad excuse, I’ll adjust. 😀

Anyway, according to the automatic email that they will get back to us with the results on the June 7th latest, so if things go according to the plan – I will get to know . bwaaaaah! 😀

I will be happy either way. I’m already proud of myself for just sending the email without spiraling down in pointless overthinking. If I get accepted, I will be filled with panic (spanish? living in Madrid? Training??) and excitement (learning opportunity on so many levels & meeting great people for sure).

If I don’t get accepted – the original plan of spending July in Ireland with the most amazing people will be back on the board.

I am incredibly lucky to be able to do all this.